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Last week I am very fascinated with the weather because it is like bells in my ears that telling me that Christmas is really here. I am in a state of ecstasy at the moment, plus hearing the Christmas songs in the stereo makes me like feeling heavenly.
That thrill I am having right now I have is not the feeling that people in Luzon is having. Instead of that wonderful feeling, they are having this hopeless anxiety.
For more than 10 years livings in our house, its as if we never have the time to fix or roof. Time immemorial, magtulo jud ang amung balay ever since the world begun. As in if mosulod ka sa amu balay, makita jud nimu ang sandayong, telling you that there is more than one buslot ang naa sa amu atop.
Like a typical person, you tend to complain and question the different discomfort you experience in life. Ako pud mangutana jud ko ngano inga ani amu life. My family are struggling to become pious and be the best family possible, that is why I believe that we don't deserve those.
But as I compare myself to those persons on the streets, on shanty areas, smokey mountains,etc., I feel ashamed. Naulaw ko kay ngano mo reklamo pa ko na mas daghan pako ug grasya sa akong kinabuhi. I am reminded that the troubles and sorrows of others are sometimes mas dako pa kaysa amoa. And I'm proud that I've realize that and now everyday of our life is full of thanksgiving, pero sometimes mangutana gihapon ko ni Lord, pero dili na kaayo heavy...heheheh.

count your blessings

Now the Philippine especially in the Luzon part experience the ill effects of the typhoon "ondoy". I am really sad of what heppened to them and very much moved by the tragic happenings. But still I am very grateful that God spared Cebu from this incident.

It is our responsibility to help one another and to be of service to others especially to those in need. In my part I have nothing to offer since have no job. My greatest thing I can contribute are my prayers, but I'm also planning to be a volunteer to repack all the goods so that it can be easily distributed to the affected people in Luzon. If I have someone to accompany me in the storage place then I can also donate my time to them.

May all the people who are in the position to help will respond to the call. In my part, even in my little way is doing something but I suppose that it is more appropriate that we must act.

pressure cooker

September 22, 2009

Ang kwarta daghan jud kaayo ug mahimo. It can literally make or break you. Usahay ang kwarta murag mao nay maghari. Sa ako ganing pamilya ako mama ug papa ang top1 jud nilang awayan kana jung kwarta. I came from a striving family, striving to raise our standard of living, that is why my father decided to gamble outside the country and to be one of the “new heroes” of our country. I being the eldest burdens the pressure of fulfilling the ambition of my parents to improve our life.

My father has been an OFW for more than 9 years already, but still we live in a life that money is still the root of problem. Ako papa ka kusinero man sa barko unya tag 10 months man iya contrata. Kung makasakay na siya, maka feel mi ug gamamyng haruhay sa life. Inig balik na niya ilabi na kung malapas na ug 3 ka buwan dili pa xa kalarge diha, maka experience nasad mi ug mur impyerno, mga kalisod, lubong sa utang, luha ug uban pang kapait sa kinabuhi. Its like a cycle that repeats over and over again. I asked my mother why it should have to be like this, she said that it is because of us (ako ug akong mga manghod). Na hala, kami diay ang hinungdan nganu nagka lisod lisod mi.

According to her, it is because most of the expenses in the school. Ang sweldo ni papa mostly napunta sa gasto sa eskwelahan. That is why I felt the early burden of hardship because I am the eldest mao na kinahanglan nako mahatag kanila ang kaharuhay na ila gipanagandoy ilabi na tigulang na ako mga ginikanan.

But until now wala pa koy trabaho I have passed siguro 30 applications and resumes but still wala gihapoy nitagad nako…

Unsaon nalang intawn ni, halos 3 ka buwan nako stanby, walay permanente na trabaho. But then again, God is so good even if I do not have stasble job at the moment, freelance party host bisan asa na branch sa Jollibee, naa puy mokuha nako kng mo host ug mga party.

Hope before Christmas makatrabaho ko aron makakuha ko ug 13th month pay aron matuman nako ako saad na mag himo ug childrens party. I also have plans aside sa ako children;s party, mo visit ug different charities para mas meaningful ang pag celebrate sa birthday ni Jesus ug sa akong birthday..

window jealousy

September 21, 2009


I have always been wishing to be someone else. I do not know why or maybe I just feel not contented with of myself now.

I have many frustrations in my life. I cannot help to compare myself to others especially to the things that I lack. I joined contests, cooking contest, impersonation, stand-up comedy, literary pieces, etc., I never won even if I had all my best and the confidence. It is heartbreaking especially when you exert effort in doing that. I really have high ambitions and I do not know how to fulfill them.

I tend to compare myself to other persons it is as if I have no confidence in me. I consider myself as a talentless person, I am no good, I do not have anything to brag, nothing to be proud of myself.

Once again, out of my jealousy I start to question God. “Nung binuhos ng Diyos ang mga talento sa mga tao, natutulog ako” that is my explanation every time I have this feeling of envy to others.

Basin gidukol ko sa Ginoo then I realized the value of being unique to others. The differences of every human being are part of God’s plan for us. If we have all the same personality and talent, the world will be very boring, I bet.

I thank God that He made me appreciate my being me and able to grasp the beauty of being unique, distinct and one of a kind.

Bye bye bee

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June 2009

Two months after graduation, I resigned in Jollibee as a Sales and Marketing Assistant. It is been a tough decision for me, leaving my dearest job, the job I have learned to love and the job that I has been part of me.

My task as a SMART help me very much in developing my self-confidence. It help boost my morale and most especially it develops my skills in talking infront of many. I am no good english speaker, until now, but somehow it changed a lot; a lot better of course.

But the hardest part of leaving is to leave my co-workers who I have been considering as my own family. Sir Adpet my supervisor and to my fellow smarties who never fail to understand my situation and accept me and love me, care for me. To them who never run out of words to flatter me and to inspire me to go on in spite of discouragement. Salamat..

Throughout my experience in Jollibee stil God playes a vital role. I can't share anymore of it here because it will take me forever to write it (hehehe) but God never abandon me. For more than 100 parties I hosted and assisted; Praise the Lord.

This experience willl be forever in my heart...

Bee Happy!!

wa jud ni tagam

I will date this blog
March 2009

Before sa graduation naay another invitation nako na usa sa akong mga panagandoy, ang pag audition sa Pinoy Big Brother Season2. Hahai ika tulo na jud ko ani nag linya linya ug tass kaayo wa jud ko ni tagam. However this third time that ni linya ko, confident kaayo ko kay I make novenas jud ni Sto. Niño, St. Therese, St. Anthony, St. Rita, and Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal. I ask God to pleade allow me to enter the PBB House, ganahan man jud ko mag artista gud.

The first time I took the audition wa during the peak of Star Circle Quest, Iwas then 3rd year highschool. The next was the audition for the PBB teen edition in SM Megamall, the line was very long and I do not take lunch. The audition back then was two days (Saturday and Sunday) so after that I return the next day and patiently fall in line two times. For the whole audition of PBB teen audition, it took me three times to fall in line, baga kaayo ko ug nawong.

It is really my frustration to be on TV. Ambot lang ui ganahan jud ko mag artista. It seems I need appreciation and acceptance that is lacking in the present life I live. Since highschool I really like to participate in the activities and programs that is initiated by the school that every time there is an activity, you can expect me there to have a role.

Hope I can find any answers to my quest and my thirst. It is my longing and my ambition. May at least once in my lifetime I can see myself in front of the camera and can see myself in TV.

Critical

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February 2009

Salamat Lord, naayo na ko sa ako sakit. And one month nalang, graduation na!
As a graduating student, our final exams are moved earlier because for the different activities and that is required for us to attend. I am fully loaded with the subjects, I took 26 units included with the practicum. One of my subjects then was Econ3. What is so special with this subject is that I almost fail with it. My midterm was failed and my professor reprimand me to double up my effort. I am not that kind student who always study. I just depend it on stock knowledge..hehehe. I prayed a lot because there were rumors that this professsor would really failed students.
And God, as always, answerd my prayer, our professor gave us a special project to replinish our grades..Thank God I was able to make it and graduate in time...

PIT SEÑOR

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January 2009


One of the most awaited part of the year, aside from Christmas, is this January for the celebration of "Fiesta Señor" or more widely used term as "Sinulog". Being a pious person, I'm really devoted to the Santo Niño in Cebu. It is been part of my weekly routine to go to the Basilica to attend mass every friday for the whole year.

Another trial strucked me again. It is about my health. Since the last week of the year I am sick. I have one absent of Misa de Gallo, the first absent for 9 years consecutively present always. It stoped during Christmas until my birthday (maybe because I am very eager to celebrate it with full energy). I also missed the chance to experience the Edge Coaster Ride in Crown Regency because I am not feeling well from the 28th until on the 31st of December.

I decided to have a medical chek-up since I had a cough that was almost a week, I was terrified. I then go to stanford medical to check my conditions. True to my feelings I do have a Pneumonia, but thank God it is not that critical yet, pneumonits are just forming so I can still beat them with antibiotic.

I asked from my immediate supervisor to give me a 2 week rest while recovering from my illness. Still when I am having my rest I do my solemn obligation as a devotee of the Holy Child, thus completing all the novenas and activities for the festivities on Honor to Him.

What I realized during my sickness is that the Santo Niño doesn't want me to be absent during the celebration of Hia feast. Because if I was not sick then I will continue to work in the Jollibee and by that time Sinulog is one of the busiest time of the year. If i still continue to work maybe I cannot attend the services in honor of the Holy Child. And also, through my sickness, I've learned to take care of myself.

VIVA PIT SEÑOR

In time

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December 2008

hahai,
I wrote last November 2008 na nagkalisod pa jud intawn mi and I am afreaid na dili na mo ma celebrate ang usual Christmas and my birthday because of financial burden na amo pa gi ka atubang..
But still the Lord never abandon us, buotan kaayo si Lord. All things turn well. Nakabayad ko sa exam ug sa uniform nako sa practicum. Ug naka celebrate pa jud intawn mi ug PASKO. And then ang ako Birthday mas bongga pa kay sa last year...Completo ang ako children's party. Nagpasalamt jud ko kay sa dihang nahutdan mi ug pagkaon, nagpadala jud ug tabang ang Ginoo throuh the person of Jomaita Oral. Ni donate siya ug food for the kids (in fairness mas bongga pud ang food na iya gi prepare kay sa akoa..hehehe), but still the Lord performs another miracle. How great is the Lord..

Lord thank you for your continuing presence and your help to us. You never leave us. Help us in our daily struggle to be faithful to you. Help us not to doubt your unconditional love....

http://markybehavior.blogspot.com/2008/11/when.html

salamat

September 15, 2009
"Our Lady of Sorrows"

Hai salamat buhi pa ako blog site. Hapit nasad mag one year since last ko ni visit ani na site. Na realize nako na kinhanglan ako ni xa i maintain para fpr future use...hehehe..as a source of inspiration ba..

Daghan nasad kaayo ang nahitabo sa ako life for tha past months na ako gikalipay, uban ako gimahayan, ug ang uban, wala lang...

Unya lang nako tiwason kini kay gabie naman gud, 11:50 na sa gabie sa..ako sad i redal;l ang ubang happenings sa ako life unya ako dayon i sulat diri..

sige..