pressure cooker

September 22, 2009

Ang kwarta daghan jud kaayo ug mahimo. It can literally make or break you. Usahay ang kwarta murag mao nay maghari. Sa ako ganing pamilya ako mama ug papa ang top1 jud nilang awayan kana jung kwarta. I came from a striving family, striving to raise our standard of living, that is why my father decided to gamble outside the country and to be one of the “new heroes” of our country. I being the eldest burdens the pressure of fulfilling the ambition of my parents to improve our life.

My father has been an OFW for more than 9 years already, but still we live in a life that money is still the root of problem. Ako papa ka kusinero man sa barko unya tag 10 months man iya contrata. Kung makasakay na siya, maka feel mi ug gamamyng haruhay sa life. Inig balik na niya ilabi na kung malapas na ug 3 ka buwan dili pa xa kalarge diha, maka experience nasad mi ug mur impyerno, mga kalisod, lubong sa utang, luha ug uban pang kapait sa kinabuhi. Its like a cycle that repeats over and over again. I asked my mother why it should have to be like this, she said that it is because of us (ako ug akong mga manghod). Na hala, kami diay ang hinungdan nganu nagka lisod lisod mi.

According to her, it is because most of the expenses in the school. Ang sweldo ni papa mostly napunta sa gasto sa eskwelahan. That is why I felt the early burden of hardship because I am the eldest mao na kinahanglan nako mahatag kanila ang kaharuhay na ila gipanagandoy ilabi na tigulang na ako mga ginikanan.

But until now wala pa koy trabaho I have passed siguro 30 applications and resumes but still wala gihapoy nitagad nako…

Unsaon nalang intawn ni, halos 3 ka buwan nako stanby, walay permanente na trabaho. But then again, God is so good even if I do not have stasble job at the moment, freelance party host bisan asa na branch sa Jollibee, naa puy mokuha nako kng mo host ug mga party.

Hope before Christmas makatrabaho ko aron makakuha ko ug 13th month pay aron matuman nako ako saad na mag himo ug childrens party. I also have plans aside sa ako children;s party, mo visit ug different charities para mas meaningful ang pag celebrate sa birthday ni Jesus ug sa akong birthday..