Unexplainable

Unexplainable

Yes, from the title it says true to me this past few days, or months in my life now.

It seems I am crazy, out of my mind, distorted and disturbed. I am not on myself because I was ambitious, materialistic and proud person, but now, I do not know what happened.

]it all started when I was assigned in Tacloban for a month and time there really run or should I say crawl very slow since I have no outlet to burst out my tons of energy, and I have no where else to go. I drown myself to constant prayer and meditation during my rest days and every day I suppose. No tv, no internet, no radio, no news. Everything. I was just work-boarding house-work-boarding house routine, but between those is “church” before I go to work, I pass the church of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and I earnestly prayed there every time I proceed to work. And I can still vividly remember my prayer was:

“Lord, help me to find another job when I get back to Cebu, Lord, use me according to your will and purpose”

I kept on repeating that prayer in one month. I also read the book, “the purpose driven life” by Rick Warren.

Until one day (I cannot remember the exact day) when I was recollecting my thought and my ambition before to become a priest. It’s as seems a flashback of my life is played. I recall the times I am so ecstatic when I am serving, or when I am praying and everything that I was doing before that is connected in the church or in the community.

I am not sure why that thing is happening to me: maybe because of boredom, maybe because of nothing to do but to pray. But I am very sure that God is telling me something, and that something I have to look forward to in the future. But I am very glad now, that God has called me to serve Him, through the Awesome Kids Ministry of the Light of Jesus Family. I am so grateful because I know He is the one who led my hand here. And I am very excited to what is happening to me more in the future.

Praise be to God.